all around.still alone.


There are really some days in our life where we feel we are alone..

For me today was sucha day.

Alone.When surrounded by about 100 people..

Today early morning started my journey to office from home,Reached office in time,A recruitment drive was happening..I was busy for some time regarding the arrangement and all.. Almost 80+ candidates around me.. handling all of them wasn’t  such an eazy task and that too with a “feeling bad” mode in heart and with “artificial smile” on face..

My cousin,Rajesh Kumar some day told me “We are always alone by Passion.Dreams and Thoughts..”




Boys Hostel !!


Ho.. staying somewhere is such a complicated thing.. I have to find some where which is suitable for me and that too in the very next day after joining the firm,after my office time,as per the suggestion of my superior to goto the boys hostel which is some 2km from office..

The night before I stayed in Princess Inn with Android developer Noble,It was nice for me because I was intrested in android,and started asking all my queries to him,haha at last he told me with “soo.. can we sleep?” and I said yes sir 🙂

Attended his Android workshop the next day ,class was just nice..liked it..

Then after the class and all it time to search for a shelter..

it wasn’t as easy as i thought mainly with laguage in hand..and with a verylow balance  in mobile..and it was getting dark..

Therez a BOYS HOSTEL near MLA quarters,Palayam my office Manager Mr.Anish told me while i called him,so I walked to that side.. Mob balance after that call..was just a 0.1 , One of my best friend called me and send me the 16digit recharge number.. 🙂 ho… I feel much better.. then also i continued walking lots to walk.. saw the board of BOYS HOSTEL.. time was almost 6.30pm I entered in..asked for the details 1650 per month. with 1500 as advance,I wasnt having that much with me,I gave 500 and told that the remaining i will give with in 2 days.. it was a friday..

The warden guide me to the room before these all.,The room was just ok for me as I used to attend the NSS camps and sleeping over the classroom benches., The room was painted in light green color,and the wall was lil wet at the top.. thank god.. therez a fan n light and coz a plug which i can charge my mob.. called home n friend.. sat in the cot for some time..silence was roaring!! I removed my shoes n changed the dress.. took out my bed sheets and arraged the bed.. at 8.30 fall asleep..


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The 4th day..


On december 5th,technically my 4th day at office.. I have to create some reports regarding some of our new projects,I started its work at it goes on continuing till 1.35 noon,while my collides were busy with lunch,me too was feeling hungry but I almost fininshed it,then leave my cabin,then to food on a local hotel,homely food,as I wont gave much preference to taste and number of curries included in it,it was enough for me,and it cost just 25/- ,after that when I came back I saw our CEO standing out of the org,I was happy seeing him,because he is such a great person,down to earth,good in this job .. and all,He smiled at me as I was already smiling by the moment I saw him,I wish him,”Good afternoon sir” he replied to it,and I said that I saw him driving the car on sunday.. “Oh you didnt went home?,where you staying..?”he asked “no sir,I dont know the exact place name,its nearly half km from Malayala Manorama’s office..”said I,and we dispersed.Then at my cabin I finished the report and send the mail to superiors and to the CEO,after some time a staff came and told “Sir is calling you..”,I got a little exited and nervous for a moment,then walked in to his cabin,

I : may I..

CEO : Yeah.. sit down.. is it going..did you like it..

I : yes sir,everything is going nice..

CEO : ok.. (then we had some official talks about the company and Strategies and all )

I too add my suggestions..

In between CEO’s wife who is the head of IT training division,she came and said “oh.. Ajay,i was about to call,saw about you in the companies blog ” I smiled,didnt expect it..

CEO : ok Ajay,so far you are doing good,first impression is the best..keep it up (I was feeling too good..) how about the team here is everyone supportive?

I :  yea sir,100% supportive..

ok then,I leaved the cabin with lots of confidence.. I was happy but not to the extreme,there are lots to go.. miles to reach.. Happyness,sadness,loneliness,boredom,everything will come,will stay and will leave..